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As I Cast Ruin Upon the Lens That Reveals My Every Flaw

by Cavernlight

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Every hearth will feel the touch of frost. Every root will feel the thirst of drought. Every mouth will feel the sting of famine. Everything that feeds this life will vanish.
2.
Imprisoned by a dreadful shadow choking out all forms of loving light. One gloved hand around the throat, the other placed upon the face covering our eyes from sight. You’ll only know the cold. As we drift into time. The body becomes unknown. As we drift into time.
3.
Material 04:22
Severing ties with the idea of the ethereal. These mental binds held for far too long. Anchored to a world unattainable. Attachments to realms unfastened within my mind. With shackles now cast off my being falls over the precipice. Toward an assumed graceless depth devoid of love. To be broken upon the neutral uncaring grey of stone. Roots can only take grasp and feed upon the corporeal. No mystical. No spiritual. No supernatural.
4.
I make sincere attempts to engage and interact with the world. But most days feel like I'm watching it all through a shimmer, a reflection. The way the surface of water looks from below when you're gazing up towards the light. I am observing the world through that distorted view, seeing shapes and shadows. I am unable to trust my perception but I'm still reacting as if it is objectively true. So I continue, submerged, flowing downstream. Sometimes close to the surface, sometimes further below. Deeper. Sometimes barely capable of making sense of the things that I see. Regardless of my depth I still find myself in some degree second guessing everything. I still find myself struggling. I find myself suffocating. I reach for the shimmering surface, but I never really breach it. I can never interact with others or with reality without feeling disconnected, isolated. I can never interact with clarity, without struggling to understand. I spend every day living below the shimmer.
5.
Every day enduring the inferno. A spark born from the palms of my own two hands. A blaze to consume my flesh long after it chars my wills. This brittle blackened shell I have woefully become. Rend my soul. Cast me asunder.
6.
Before this looking glass, I gaze into my own abyss. This is the life spring of my every flaw. The birthplace of everything I truly hate. This dungeon of puss and piss. It oozes, and it drips, and it gathers around my feet. It cannot stand, these walls will crumble. I am warm here within this pool of filth. The lens has now shattered. I cannot stand. The pressure surrounds me. Is now mine. The filth around me. Is now mine. Fault that lies behind me. Is now mine.
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Prelude 03:57
Listen.
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Scorned by the self. Masking blame with our prayers. Our blood is the source of sorrow. Behold the secret of all things sacred. I am the key and I am the door. I am the misery. Failed by love. Failed by flesh. Failed by mind. The wood of this frame splintered by stress and time (a fractured place). The hinges rusted and stiff, unwilling to budge (vacant and neglected). The skeleton keyhole projecting a dim glow from behind that creaking door (struggling to emit heat). A single burning ember in a cold windowless room (starving and alone). How long until that door breaks before intrusive powers (unendurable pressure). Before that ember is seized and smothered (overwhelmed by shadows). A hissing sound as a final plume of smoke emits from the lightless mass (a lonely death rattle).

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released May 13, 2022

Performed by:

Adam Bartlett
Drums, vocals, lyrics

Scott Burns
Guitar, vocals, lyrics,
programming, violin, accordion

Caleb Cheslock
Guitar, vocals

Brandon James
Bass, piano

Recorded October 9th-13th, 2019 in Studio B at Electrical Audio in Chicago, IL
Additional tracking by Scott Burns January - March, 2020 at his home in Wisconsin
Engineered and mixed by Scott Evans
Mastered by Brad Boatright at Audiosiege Mastering

Additional vocals on “Fate,” “Prelude,” and “Reconcile” by Kristin Webb
Additional vocals on “Material” by Risa Hill
Additional vocals and electronics on “Ruin” by Thommy Saraceno

Photography by Scott Burns
Layout & design by Adam Bartlett

Special thanks: Scott Evans. Dave Turncrantz.
Taylor Hales, Greg Norman, and the staff of Electrical Audio.
Pat Crawford. Kristin Webb. Risa Hill. Dan MacAdam. Thommy Saraceno.

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